Sunday, September 6, 2009

Blog Camp - (continued)

I returned to Blog Camp today...in fact I was sooooo ready to return to Blog Camp today that I was up early....well, that might have had to do with the beeping, but, nonetheless, I was up early and rarin' to go.....up the hill I went. I returned to Blog Camp on another route from my home, so, I was able to enjoy two different scenic views over the course of the three days....a bonus for me, I think.

Because of the minor hiccup in my weekend, the adventure has taken on additional meaning for me......and I suspect there will be a mulititude of epiphanies for me as the days pass by and I reflect on Blog Camp and what I have gained because of it.

When I returned home today and downloaded all of my photos and reviewed them I felt a huge swell of emotions and, well, pride.....(my photos were great, but....)my pride was in myself for going out on a limb...for trusting....something I do not do very easily. For putting myself out there...you know, recovering from a life not lived.

When my heart problems pop up I sort of get lost for a short time, revert to my kid self and then the warrior in me starts building the fortress to protect that little kid and then I withdraw.....just a little....and it would have been super easy for me to back out of my return to Blog Camp today and use that as an excuse....but, I didn't. I stepped out of my fortress and returned to a place that felt amazing.

My head and my heart are swimming right now. This adventure was a beautiful gift and I am so profoundly grateful.....

As I process these emotions and my photos I'm sure more revelations will appear.....for now, Thank you to Sara at Turning Stones for hosting Blog Camp - Reno....

McGillicuty, rxBambi and Zena....you ladies rock the beach....and the cameras!

More in the days to follow.....for now, Peace

7 comments:

marinik said...

i see your blue toes....:)
and i'm so glad you went back... well done

An Open Heart said...

Mari, I painted my toes blue in your honor....to show solidarity....to bring your spirit to Blog Camp with me.....

Brian Miller said...

good job going back...and glad you had a great time!

Bonnie, Original Art Studio said...

Bravo! Warrior women does not need to stay in a fortress. What a beautiful analogy to illustrate how you approached your predicament. Sounds like you were determined to live your life from a place of love, not fear.

otin said...

You did a great job of battling your set back and pushing on. My hats off to you!!!!!

julochka said...

i'm really glad you went back and that the whole thing was such a positive growth experience for you. there are some pretty amazing people here in the blogosphere.

Delena said...

Cute photo and I am jealous of everyone going to these blog camps. How awesome is that!!