Sunday, September 20, 2009

"This ain't my first rodeo"......(attributed to Vern Gosden)

So, I don't know if I mentioned this before, but, I used to be a rodeo photographer.....I have boxes of photos of cowboys and their rides. It's amazing to just sit and listen to them talk about their rides....they can remember every second of an 8 second ride they made 5 years in the past, longer for some cowboys. This simply amazes me, especially if they are bull riders, because most days they get the sense and memory knocked right out of them. I love cowboys...it is my weakness. I could go on and on about their virtues, but, I'll save that for another post.

This photo inspired me tonight because of what lies ahead of me for tomorrow. I like the thought of having a couple of bull fighters on my side....more politically correct, "Cowboy protection". I used to hang out at a ranch in Galt, CA, where an old retired rodeo cowboy used to preach the Gospel and teach bull riding. It was pretty cool because you could be right there, over the chute or in the arena (at your own risk of course), but, I would go out there with my camera and shoot pics of young up and comers and get up close to the action. I usually stood right outside the chute gate, facing the bull and the rider as they shot out of the chute.....many times I had to run and jump a fence in order to escape danger....at one point I even had my own bull fighter, who, most times just yelled at me to run.....but, he was there to keep an eye on me....and he did a good job. I loved hanging out at the ranch and listening to the boys recount their adventures and near misses. It was always an adrenaline rush, whether I was in the arena or standing over the chute.

I guess I'm looking for the inspiration to get back to that place where I didn't really worry about the danger I was courting in the arena. As danger goes, tomorrow is going to be extremely controlled, unlike bull riding and I'm not worried about the outcome, only wondering if I can find a way, after going under the knife again to extend the warranty, so to speak, to let go of my fear and challenge my heart and it's capacity. It's time I started making my own rides (blue girl)and regaling y'all with every second of the ride.....

Peace

8 comments:

Dayne Gingrich said...

"...to let go of my fear and challenge my heart and it's capacity. It's time I started making my own rides (blue girl)and regaling y'all with every second of the ride."

AWESOME!

If you haven't yet, check out my latest post on "fear." May help give you some "power."

Good luck with the surgery! We'll all be here waiting to read more and more.

-Dayne

Fe said...

Good Luck for today.

xx

otin said...

I totally understand what you are talking about! It is tough living every day, worrying about exerting yourself too much. I think that must be the most difficult part of heart issues, the mental strain it puts on a person. I hope all goes well today!

Brian Miller said...

hope you have a great day. will be remembering you in our thoughts and prayers. one day at a time...dont worry about tomorrow, but make the most of today...the fear of losing today is what makes the most of it for me. see you on the other side.

CatLadyLarew said...

Talk about living life on the edge! I'll be thinking good thoughts.

Christina said...

This is fabulous! I so did not know that! What a cool photo!
xoxo

julochka said...

thinking of you and your surgery!! and it's so fabulous that you were a rodeo photographer. i used to run the barrel race. :-)

staceyjwarner said...

How fantastic to be a rodeo photographer...I love cowboys and spend time in a ranch in Montana. Glad to hear your surgery went well.

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